He gave me a story
He gave me a story
Something to believe
Something to make me feel special
Make me feel like we were destiny
But I had been told that story before
Different but the same
and told another version
Different but the same
And I so wanted to believe
And I can’t imagine any story to be true
Any story that involved being with me
So this time I walked away
I see my love
Close your eyes
Picture yourself
Tell me what you see
I see me
No, describe what you see
Me, short buzzed salt and pepper hair
weary eyes buried behind glasses
tense mouth framed by wrinkles
arms and legs with roadmaps of veins and arteries
middle and thighs heavy not yet fat
Still more broken than whole
He put his finger to my lips
Stop
I see your cute short hair
dark brown thoughtful eyes that mirror your soul
your huge smile that lights up your face
soft skin and curves
And a brilliant mind that is always searching and learning
I see a beautiful woman who is constantly growing
I see my love
When he is gone
When he is gone
I will leave the twist tie off the bread
leave the leftovers on the stove til bedtime
put flowered wallpaper in the bedroom
sit outside and howl at the moon
When he is gone
I will create my IRA
squirrel money away for a rainy day
pick my expenses
sit outside and howl at the moon
When he is gone
I will let the kids make noise
crawl in bed with me after the bad dream
serve macaroni and chicken nuggets at every meal
sit outside and howl at the moon
while the children catch lightening bugs
And the bugs will light our way
and the stars will give us hope
and our noise will tell us we are not alone