Have you seen Maiden, Mother, Crone?

I never know
why the memories come
but they do
once in awhile
and they are so vivid
I can see his face
the brown green of his eyes
and I can’t shake them
and then as I blink
I can see my baby’s eyes
warm and brown
adoring and trusting
and I can’t shake that either
and anxiety
and I reach for the bottle
just one pill will settle it down
I hope
and if one doesn’t
I will take another
and another