by amba | Jul 1, 2023 | Demons, life
Today I woke up to shadows not really surprised the darkness was seeping in last night the darkness is comfortable the weight of it safe pressing everything else out }including the words it is all silent in the darkness then the shadows come they keep me tethered to...
by amba | Sep 25, 2022 | Demons, life, young
There were signs I didn’t know enough to pay attention to too young controlling comments needing things his way the tension starting to build as the date got closer the downpour the speed trap ticket on the honeymoon yeast infection reading Les Misérables by the pool...
by amba | Sep 16, 2022 | Demons, Healing, mother, mother wound
I am still searching for a mother I recognize it in every email I send texts calls to women I have collected in my lifetime cheerleaders listeners huggers staying in contact with long gaps between telling hey I did this hey I did that here is the latest new in my...
by amba | Jan 22, 2022 | Demons, Healing, trauma
The snow gave me clarity Deep, white, cold I lay there And I see each of them Three relationships Three lives I chased each of them Each mistake was a choice The cold numbs my regret, sadness Everything And I know I would repeat each choice There is no peace in some...
by amba | Dec 21, 2021 | abuse, Demons, Healing, trauma
Somedays you still consume me I no longer feel the touch that haunted me This is deep inside where you twisted all the emotions made it so my trust was so broken No one else could ever have me I would never be able to trust anyone again And in that simple reality I...
by amba | Dec 18, 2021 | abuse, Demons, Healing, trauma
He gave me a story Something to believe Something to make me feel special Make me feel like we were destiny But I had been told that story before Different but the same and told another version Different but the same And I so wanted to believe And I can’t imagine any...
